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Well I am sitting in front of my pc wondering what I am going to do with the rest of my life. I got laid off friday. I know it's only saturday and I have time to think, but there still seems like there's a sense of urgency. I must take my time and figure out exactly what would make me happy and follow my heart. I've worked since I was 18 yrs old, so here I am 30 with some actual time off...even if it's because of a lay off. I love writing, maybe there's something I can do with that (don't know til I try). No matter what I end up doing, this time I want it to be something I'll love or at least not completely hate haha. This lay off is a good thing, I know it is. My niece was just diagnosed with a very rare disease for which there is no cure so I can spend alot more time with her now. And I'll get to catch up on lost time with all my family. Sometimes a job just becomes so much more and we lose touch with family and friends. We ultimately lose sight of wha...

Well it's rained for about a week or so straight and I have to say, I am ready for some sunshine lol. But I will admit the world is so very beautiful after a rain....grass is greener, flowers brighter, everything seems more alive. Today I think I'll take the time to notice all the wonderful things that a dreary old rain can bring lol. Like...snuggles on the couch ;) or an ease to allergies *waves bye to pollen*. Try to always find the positive in all situations..rain or shine. Sometimes we get knocked on our arses and then sand kicked in our faces and the best thing to do at that moment is pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and keep going. A movie from the 80's comes to mind...."Have you paid your dues Jack?" "Yes sir, the check is in the mail!" LOL I love that movie! Keep going and keep believing in yourself. We all will see brighter and better days.

I was going through some papers last night and came across a letter I wrote to my mother a year or so ago and wanted to share it. I hope after reading this you feel compelled to share love, not just to your mother...maybe patch a bridge that was burnt long ago with a sibling, a father, or a friend. I took out the name of my friend for his privacy. I'm sitting at work writing this to email you when I get home. I'm working tonight for a friend. His grandmother is dying and sadly will probably pass before you get this. He called to tell me how things were and that his mom and aunt are with her. My friend's mother sits with a bible in her lap reading outloud to her mother. After talking with him for awhile he hangs up to be with his family and I am left to look within myself. I think what would I do, what would I say, how would I feel? I know one day God will separate us and I think on it. Will there be screams or silent tears? Will there be "why God" or "th...

So I log into my fave radio station home page and see this story. I've been hearing bits and pieces on my way to work and now I have the whole understanding and i'm a bit upset. The radio station gave away cosmetic surgery as a prize....yes a prize! The young woman who won had a great story and I know she deserves the help, but here's my beef. How many people out there, children and adults, could use this more? I would love to have seen the station give this "prize" away to a person who really needed it....a burn victim, someone who had terrible scars, someone who couldn't afford to have a procedure like that done. I'm not knocking liposuctions, or breast augmentations, but really that's the best we can do? I love listening to that radio station, but to be honest...I may not listen anymore. I am so deeply saddened by this. Am I off base or does that just seem wrong? I mean the young woman who won was very thankful for the help and couldn't afford t...

So here it is three months into a new year and I am looking in the mirror thinking, what was my new years resolution again lol. A look around my computer room shows the tell tale signs of the struggle against the "battle of the bulge"... a woman on the cover of some random magazine that lost 3 dress sizes by eating some "super food" that doesn't seem like anything I want to eat. And it's everywhere I look...the internet, the news, the grocery store, the gas station....the list goes on to the point I want to scream "Hey just cause I am not a size 2 doessn't mean I am not beautiful!" (Nothing agaisnt any size 2's out there lol) Why do we as a society feel the need to publish more and more pictures and articles making any person who doesn't fit in the little media box idea of "perfect" feel inadequate? In past eras a person with a fuller figure was the epitome of beautiful, but now I see "plus size" models and I think i...