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Tonight I went to my niece's honors night. It's hard to believe she's graduating in just a few short days. She got so many awards. Every time they called her name, I would tear up. Her pet name is Anaksunamun, so I will refer to her as that or A. A is graduating with honors as well. I couldn't be more proud of A. She has worked hard and is so smart. A has lived with me for 3 years now and I like to hope that I helped, in some all way, her become this really terrific and amazing young woman! I wasn't sure about opening my home to her. It was scary and uncharted territory, but was worth it. I got to teach her to ride a bike and drive a car. There were so many firsts..... even now, I tear up thinking about it. I couldn't have imagined how great this kid would become. I know that whatever she decides to do, she will rock it. I look forward to her future and all the wonderful amazing things this life has to offer her. Today, I turn 40, my own little milestone; but it...

I'm about to be 40 years old and I feel like something is broken in me. Shouldn't I be more settled? Shouldn't I have a job, instead of walking away from one? I have no regrets with quitting, although I do miss my coworkers and customers. I just feel like I'm not doing what is expected of me. Shouldn't I be settled more? This darn gypsy spirit of mine just feels caged. I want to write a book. I want to see the world. I want so many things and feel like none of them will ever happen. I know not every dream will come true, but maybe just one or two. One thing I really wish, is that I had the money to send my niece to college. I hate that she has to worry about paying for tuition. I wish that I could say, pick wherever you want to go, I got you. I wish I could build a house with tons of handicap options for my other niece. It would be great to know that she would be taken care of for life. The only thing I want for myself is a tiny house and a newer vehicle, specifical...